Chapter 1820: Chapter 1813: A Full Meal Before the Journey
This scene was too familiar to Su Sigui, the people gathered at the Anti-Zombie Wall Gate like a tide of corpses; she had seen it countless times in her past life.
Only, this scene came rather late.
She had thought about this occurring long ago, she thought she would be used to it, but upon truly seeing it, she couldn’t help but feel confused. What she did, how did it compare with Ning Tianlang?
There were too many things beyond control, and when those uncontrollable events occurred in front of her once more, she was powerless. All she could do was to make herself more cold-blooded.
She did not answer Tang Ye, and Tang Ye didn’t mind.
After coming to her side, he also looked over. The railing, which he had previously gripped and twisted, had long been repaired. In the city below, the streets were numerous and complex; the crowd flowed along like water. In the buildings left from the old era, he could see, with his sharp sight, people lying on mats with numb expressions.
On the streets, a squad of soldiers in exoskeletal suits cut through the crowd like a sharp blade, moving straight forward, causing people to scramble to get out of the way.
It was very quiet around, but Tang Ye still thought that having too good of hearing at this time was also a bother; the sounds from below were chaotic, much like someone who didn’t understand music blowing randomly on an unknown instrument.
The two did not remain silent for long. Soon, Tang Ye heard Su Sigui speak: "What do you think of this place?"
Tang Ye glanced at her, not hiding anything, and shook his head: "Not much, it’s not different from other places. If there’s a difference, it’s that this place is much larger than others."
"I think so too."
Tang Ye was a bit surprised and then said, "Don’t you think I am mocking you?"
"No, unless you have the ability to clean up the mess in front of me."
"I don’t have that confidence."
"Do you think I do?"
"Hmm? Isn’t this question something you should ask yourself?"
"Yes, but it seems like I made a mistake from the start, it wasn’t as decisive as I thought."
"Do you mean time?"
"Hmm, I wanted to take another path, but I found that I overestimated the human species. When I had this thought, I thought there was still plenty of time, until what happened forced me to give up everything and move forward that I realized, I had already squandered a lot of time."
"Are you talking about the past life or now?"
"What do you think?"
"If you ask me like this, then I didn’t feel like you wasted time."
"Right, you’re not me..." Su Sigui buried her head in her arms with some dejection, Tang Ye noticed this and pursed his lips; this was the second time she showed him her vulnerable side.
He felt she was trying to express something to him, but he couldn’t react immediately.
Tang Ye was silent for a bit and then quickly said, "Tell me, why do you feel like you’re wasting time? I can’t do much else, but I can be a qualified listener."
Su Sigui turned her head, revealing one eye and smiled.
"Normally, if that person didn’t die, they’d approximately advance to Level 9 soon."
"So early?"
"Yes, but without accidents, he had two years to organize all of humanity to prepare for the final Chapter, but unfortunately, accidents still happened. And me? I had no accidents, although I was more than a year behind, I made the most fatal mistake: being complacent, not paying attention to the outside world, so I didn’t have a clear understanding of how much time I had; I actually naively thought to give some people a chance to change, only to find that compared to mercy, the most effective thing to make people extremely fearful is the threat."
"Do you think people are lowly?" Su Sigui suddenly asked back, Tang Ye paused, gave her a deep look, but said nothing, just listened intently.
"These days, I don’t know why, maybe it’s really like others said, I’ve become a god, a high god, I’ve achieved fame and success, this life is worth it, life is such, so I didn’t run around like before. Instead, I started living like an ordinary person, sleeping and waking up on time. I started to enjoy the time after nine o’clock at night."
"It’s not because I can do what I like during this time; it’s because... I enjoy sleeping."
"Why?" Tang Ye asked cooperatively.
"Because sleeping allows me to dream, so these days I often dream of that person, and I suddenly realized that I still act like a child, feeling smug for doing something others can’t, thinking I’m great, haha... especially after reaching the same height as him, I thought I would do better than him, but in the end, it was a mess."
"Now I am at a loss... no, it’s not being at a loss; it’s that I don’t know what to do, so soon I followed humanity’s most instinctive choice, which is to escape, and then whether I advance or retreat, it’s all about escaping."
"Now I start to fantasize impractically, hoping there could be someone to tell me what to do, how to solve all of this?"
"Preferably directly cut through complications with a swift solution, making everything orderly."
"Can you understand that? From my perspective, only the weak would fantasize like that. I used to be like that, with a broken family. My father, to support me, got involved with things he shouldn’t have and became a complete gambling addict, while my mother formed her own family. I was like an outsider there, back then I felt helpless and would fantasize about heaven giving me two buttons, one when pressed would provide lots and lots of money, the other would bring back family harmony."
"Do you know what choice I made back then?"
"I chose money. Compared to my father, I hated my mother more; I hoped I’d have lots of money, and then she’d turn back and try to please me, hahaha, isn’t it funny?"
"The time span between who I was then and who I am now is over twenty years, so far apart, it feels like I’m living there again, but the mess is still with me."
She glanced at him, seeing that he didn’t speak, and fell into silence, looking down at the street scene below.
Just when she fell silent, Tang Ye looked at the sky and said something of deep meaning.
"When we first came to the Prince Hotel, everything in the top-floor banquet hall was ready, but there were no other people. We heard from that little girl that this banquet was just for us, and my people began to think; of course, I also thought, based on the things you’ve done recently, we thought you were planning to send us on our way after the feast!"
With those words, Tang Ye looked at her, and Su Sigui suddenly raised her head, her eyebrows lifted, and asked, "If I really did that, what would you do?"
"What else? Meet soldiers with generals, use earth against water, at worst perish together with you, just like those people comforting themselves before they die, at worst it’s just death, right?" With these words, the smile on Tang Ye’s face grew more peculiar and brighter.